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Private Rants

The Lockdown

It’s been a long time since I posted here. I’m currently under lockdown so I have no excuses anymore to not take some time to write something.

Even before the lockdown and the start of this pandemic, my new year’s plans were derailed because of some bureaucratic mess I had to deal with. This was my first obstacle of the year and I immediately became undisciplined when confronted with it. At the time I didn’t know that 2020 would be full of obstacles.

I was afraid of this

I became stressed about the possible pandemic at the end of January. I hoped that my government would be reasonable, seal the borders, and stop the flights from the infected countries before the virus has spread.

I was wrong. Throughout February I watched in disbelief what was happening in China. The lies of their government, the lies of the WHO, various governments telling their people that this won’t affect their citizens. I heard from everywhere that closing the borders and stopping the flights was unnecessary and that it would destroy our economies. Really? More than they are being destroyed now? While we’re treated like prisoners?

Then it came here

We got our first infected at the beginning of March and by March 12 almost everything was closed. On March 15 the government forbade the free movement of people, effectively locking us like prisoners in our own homes. It’s been almost a month. I used to walk ten to eighteen kilometers each day, now I’m sitting at my desk all day, getting depressed. I should be able to convince myself that this is the perfect time to do all the work that I planned to do at the beginning of this year. But I can’t.

I love spring…and freedom

It’s spring. My favorite season of the year. And I’m missing it because of worldwide stupidity and because almost every government around the globe decided to destroy their own local traditional industries in favor of cheap pre-broken imports from China. I hope that people and governments will get smarter once this all ends and invest in their own industries and production, but I’m not counting on it.

Nothing is certain anymore

At this point in time, I don’t know what I should do. I need to reevaluate everything I do and everything I planned on doing. My sales in print on demand stores have crashed. Nobody’s buying anything. I had more canceled orders than new orders. If this continues I can’t stay in this business much longer. I know, I wanted to diversify and start new venues, but it will be harder while not earning practically everything of the work I’ve done previously. It’s the kind of situation that keeps one awake at night.

I don’t know how smart it would be to start anything new right now when almost everyone is losing money and can’t afford to spend much on non-essentials. And thinking about the betrayal of average citizens by their own governments makes me mad and takes away my will to do anything but wallow in sadness and semi-desperation. All my adult life, I wanted to be left alone, especially by the government, I didn’t want anything, just be left alone and live my life as I please. Now I can’t do almost anything. Nothing is private anymore. We’re been watched.

We have no rights

People around the globe and their basic rights have been sacrificed because the governments wanted to protect the business interests of multinational organizations and large corporations while hoping that there was some possibility that even if they didn’t take any precautions, nothing bad would happen. Well, something bad did happen because of their inaction and as always, local communities and small businesses will get destroyed, while corporations will get their public money bailouts once this all ends.

At this point, I wonder why do we even pay taxes. To our governments, we’re just the dumb obedient cattle that keep the multinational corps running. We don’t matter, if we did, we wouldn’t be sacrificed at the altar of globalism.

Sorry, not sorry

I’m sorry that I rambled for so long but I needed to get this off my chest and to put my anger into words. I think it helped. I don’t expect almost anyone to read this, and I would prefer it if they didn’t. I wrote this mainly for myself, my peace of mind, and to document what’s happening both in the world and in my mind.

I hope that people will be safe as much as possible and that the damages and the number of the dead won’t be as high as some predicted. We’ll have an opportunity to reflect on how this happened and why.

I still hope that there will be some silver lining coming from this, like reinvigoration of localism, the reintroduction of traditional industries, and possibly boycott of products made in China. If we didn’t ignore the Chinese disregard for human rights and the environment, nothing of this would have happened.

People need to wake up and I hope that some will.

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Technical

Reconstruction In Progress

Hi, I just want to let everyone know that this site is not yet finished, and I’m still working on some asset bundles which will be showcased here.

The site is on only because I want the blog to be accessible. Thank you for understanding.

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Weekly Progress

1/19/2020 – Progress reports

Hey, everyone! I’ve decided to change the frequency of these progress reports. I don’t think they are interesting enough to justify their daily frequency.

Right now, I’m trying some productivity hacks, so I’m able to produce more images and graphic assets this year. And since I’m at various stages of a few of my projects, I need all the productivity that I can get. Also, I need some help in deciding which projects are and aren’t important right now. For me, it’s always hard to decide which project to pursue, and which to put on hold, but I know that I can’t do everything at once.

Next week, I want to submit a second bundle of graphic assets to the Unity Asset Store. It’s been almost two years since I had done it for the first time, so I need to catch on some changes to the format of the accompanying images for the asset’s profile page, and also check out the new EULA and TOS.

My last week wasn’t very productive, but I have some new images. I decided to draw some rats to acknowledge the upcoming beginning of the Chinese New Year. This time next week, the Year of The Rat will be upon us! I’ll be drawing more of the Chinese Zodiac signs next week.

The Year of The Rat will be here in a week!

I’ll be doing this type of post every Sunday, but if I have anything interesting to say during the week, I’ll make an extra post. I don’t want this to be only a blog that documents my work. I’m thinking about doing a few tutorials and software reviews. There’s plenty of software that I like and that I think is either too underestimated or underutilized.

Thank you for reading, and see you here next week!

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Daily Progress

1/7/2020 – Progress Report

Whoa! It’s the end of the first week of this year! The thing I learned so far is that I need to become more organized and try to ignore distractions more.

I’m not satisfied how today’s picture turned out but it will motivate me to do better the next time. I wanted to draw a map with cartoony three-dimensional buildings. it didn’t work out very well so I’ll try to do a better job tomorrow. I will also try to select some appropriate color palette to get more lively and natural colors. So here’s the unsatisfactory image from today:

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Daily Progress

1/6/2020 – Progress Report

I have only a moment to make a short post, so here are the three images from yesterday:

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Daily Progress

1/5/2020 – Progress Report

Today I’ve cheated a little and submitted three images with silhouettes from the last year. I’m still getting back into drawing and I’m working on some sketches of animals right now. The silhouettes will be hopefully approved tomorrow.

And here are the two approved images from yesterday:

As you can see I’ve been trying different styles of vector art, and I think I’ll continue experiencing with styles to get better with vector programs and to determine which styles are the best comprise between the speed of execution and the quality of the image.

I want to try to draw some buildings and scenery in the next few days, and I think it will be interesting to try even more vectors styles while doing it.

I’ll be back tomorrow with something new.

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Daily Progress

1/4/2020 – Progress Report

Here are the three images from yesterday:

I just submitted two new cartoons, which should be hopefully approved tomorrow. I need to start sketching more to be able to finish these faster.

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Daily Progress

1/3/2020 – Daily Progress

Today I submitted three files, unfortunately none of them is yet online.

Here’s the second approved image from yesterday:

Hopefully all the submitted images will be available tomorrow. And I’ll be sketching and drawing more of them. I want to try different styles so I can be more productive. The style shown here took too much time so it will be smart to diversify a bit.

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Daily Progress

1/2/2020 – Daily Progress

Like yesterday, I’ve submitted two images, however, I’ve submitted one of them after 3pm, so it hasn’t been approved yet.

Here’s the first image:

Hopefully the second image will be approved tomorrow along with two other images that I’m planning to submit.

I’m hard at work on game graphics so I’ll soon have some news about future collection of game assets.

2020 will be a HUGE success!

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Daily Progress

New Year, New Goals

This site is still under construction but I’m back!

My goal for this year is to finish several game asset collections (mainly character portraits, and animated sprites for various characters) and to do a huge chunk of work on graphics for a game on which I’ve been (on and off) collaborating for the last few years. I want to also add 500 new images into my micro-stock portfolio.

This will all require big amount of discipline but I’m up for the challenge. I have lots of new things to learn this year and I’m very excited about it all.

To achieve the goal of 500 new images, I’ll be submitting at least two images a day for the foreseeable future.

Here are my today’s pics.

Yes, these are newly exported images that I’ve created last year. Tomorrow it will be harder because I will have to finish and submit two currently half-finished images. But I’ll do it, I have no choice:) I’ll be back tomorrow.